Hey….glad you stopped by. Lots have happened since last week.
First, yes…I had a super birthday considering everything that happened. In 20 years, my hubby has never been prepared for my birthday but this year….boy did he do it big! On Sunday the 18th, he threw me a surprise birthday party at Hardriders with lots of our friends and family there. I swear, he simply never ceases to amaze me. Love him so much!
Then, on the 19th (which is actually my birthday), he and his mother and sister were to decide whether to let his daddy go and pull him off life support as he was suffering so bad with his breathing. Well, people’s feelings and their love for Leon just wasn’t ready to let him go so they decided to wait until Tuesday, the 20th. Skip ahead 20 or so hours…
Tuesday morning as we were getting ready to go pick up Bill’s mother and take her to the hospital, we got a call from the hospital at 7:15am stating that they were not able to stabilize Leon’s blood pressure. We scrambled out the door and as we got to the exit to Bill’s mother’s house the hospital called at 7:30am and informed us that Leon had passed away. We arrived at the V.A. around 8:30am and as we entered the room, I sensed a relief and a peaceful feeling that Leon was no longer suffering and thankful that God took him in His own time and the family did not have to make a decision that would have likely caused alot of hard feelings towards one another. Leave it to God to do things His way. Anyway, you can imagine what the rest of the week was like. (Skip along a few days…..)
So, I knew that with Bill’s ex coming in to comfort Billy (he took his grandpa’s death really hard) that things could go either way. Oh, she’s befriended me on Facebook and just been so “sweet” and I also know that there’s always a reason behind her motives but I didn’t think things would go the way they did with her. Friday evening was visitation and Bill and I hardly had 5 minutes together in days. As we finally had a moment and wanted to view the rolling photo display…Bill’s BIL came in to tell us that Bill’s ex “needed” him. I dealt that blow okay as Bill went out to see what she “needed”. Nothing….as usual!
Next day….funeral! The funeral looked beautiful with the American flags flying outside as Leon was a WWII vet. Lord….it just touched my heart. Well, Billy is falling apart inside and his mother (don’t forget she’s there to comfort him) is outside and hugs up on Bill….needing him. Okay…no problem right?!?!? NO! Not right there in front of MY mother and father. Seriously….Bill is talking to my parents and she had to come up and do this in front of my parents. Oh….I lost it but not quite yet. The funeral went off well and I was so proud of Billy for getting up and speaking of his grandpa in front of everyone. It was really hard for him. (Skip along a few hours….)
We’re at my MILs house….people gathering….Bill’s ex acting like nothing happened….just conversing with him outside. Well, it was time for us to go home and on the way home….I’m really ashamed of this but I just couldn’t hold it in anymore. I freakin’ blew up in the car, probably driving like a mad woman down the freeway. We’ll get through this, I know. (Skip to Sunday….)
We went back over to see Bill’s relatives off and….of course….you know who! As she was saying her goodbyes, I’m sitting right next to Bill…trying not to look at her and of course she needs another hug from Bill. He tried to avoid it and she just said “Oh, Come On….Really?!?” I know he had to because both of his kids were right there and so was like 30 other people. I’ve maintained myself since but I so felt like I had been kicked in the stomach the entire weekend. I didn’t eat for 2 days.
This past week went quite well…just quiet. I had my final on Thursday and I think I did well. Last night I had my graduation from ASU and I’m now holding a Bachelors degree in Technology! Wahooooo!!!! Everything went well there but afterwards…..Tornados! We had a very bumpy, late night and so much destruction around us but we are so very thankful that our family and friends are well. I’d post pictures but my camera is still in my MILs car. I promise, I’ll post soon.
So, life has thrown us a few curve balls lately. I do believe we will endure all that comes our way and we will persevere but Lord, why must it seem so freakin’ hard at times.
Thanks for reading up to here. I had to get some of this off my chest! Until next time….later y’all!